“Lose Yourself”

February 11th, 2008 by ch0cobo


Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti
He’s nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won’t come out
He’s choking, how everybody’s joking now
The clock’s run out, time’s up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He’s so mad, but he won’t give up that
Easy, no
He won’t have it , he knows his whole back’s to these ropes
It don’t matter, he’s dope
He knows that, but he’s broke
He’s so stagnant that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that’s when it’s
Back to the lab again yo
This this whole rhapsody
He better go capture this moment and hope it don’t pass him.


You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

The soul’s escaping, through this hole that it’s gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is boring, but superstardom’s close to post mortem
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he’s know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He’s grown farther from home, he’s no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cause here goes the cold water
His hoes don’t want him no mo, he’s cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it’s old partner’, but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da


No more games, I’ma change what you call rage
Tear this motherfucking roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playing in the beginning, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhyming and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebody’s paying the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can’t get by with my 9 to 5
And I can’t provide the right type of life for my family
Cause man, these goddam food stamps don’t buy diapers
And it’s no movie, there’s no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it’s getting even harder
Trying to feed and water my seed, plus
Teeter totter caught up between being a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama’s screaming on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another day of monotony
Has gotten me to the point, I’m like a snail
I’ve got to formulate a plot fore I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only motherfucking option, failure’s not
Mom, I love you, but this trailer’s got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem’s lot
So here I go is my shot.
Feet fail me not cause maybe the only opportunity that I got


You can do anything you set your mind to, man !!

“Mockingbird”

February 11th, 2008 by ch0cobo


I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me..


Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I’m gone but I’m trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you’re sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you’re scared, I ain’t there?
Daddy’s with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy’s here, no more nightmares
We gon’ pull together through it, we gon’ do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We’re all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin’ puzzled, in a daze
I know it’s confusing you
Daddy’s always on the move, mamma’s always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don’t want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don’t see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it’s just something we have no control over and that’s what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we’ll wake up and this will all just be a dream


Now hush little baby, don’t you cry
Everything’s gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya
Daddy’s here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise momma’s gon’ be alright

It’s funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck ‘em under the tree and said some of ‘em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn’t buy ‘em
I’ll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma’s heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin’ to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin’ a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that’s when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn’t like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin’ stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin’ at  your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it’s almost like you’re sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy’s still here
Laney I’m talkin’ to you too, daddy’s still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It’s got a ring to it don’t it?
Shh, momma’s only gone for the moment


And if you ask me too
Daddy’s gonna buy you a mockingbird
I’mma give you the world
I’mma buy a diamond ring for you
I’mma sing for you
I’ll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don’t sing and that ring don’t shine
I’mma break that birdies neck
I’d go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don’t fuck with dad !!

Dilema Penjurusan xC

January 6th, 2008 by ch0cobo

BINGUNG !

besok lusa udah penjurusan TI, aku mau masuk mana nih ???
hufffff…….. kepengennya sih masuk sistem komputer, biar bisa bikin embedded sistem, AI, and robot2 lainnya. tapi…

apa bisa yah aku bertahan dengan dosen2 yang kayak gitu ??
and apa IP ku gak turun ya kalo aku ngambil itu ??
prospek ke depan kayaknya juga gak begitu mendukung kalo aku failed..

hoaaaaaaaa……gemana nih…

pilihan jatuh ke jaringan komputer / RPL (Web and coding)..

jujur aku suka jaringan, aku juga suka web, tapi ak ga gitu suka coding. jadwal jaringan yang ada gak enakin banget… bikin puyeng…
gurunya juga guru yang bikin ipku jeblok…GRRRRR

kalo aku ambil RPL, aku bakal jadi kutu komputer gituh ??
apa bisa ya dapat duit banyak ?? seneng sih seneng.. trus gmn dong enaknya ??
T,T

bingung sungguh bingung…….

mungkin akan ambil jaringan + RPL dulu dech…
aku coba ambil 22nya…
otomatis SKS ku ambil banyak semester ini, and jadwal kuliah padat banget selama 5 bulan.. bahan juga semakin banyak…

huff… nasib nasib… tapi gpp lah….

itung2 peluang cepet lulus, sapa tau bisa cepet kerja, cepet sukses..

amenn amien amannnn dach………
:p

doaen aja ya semuanya…

btw minta saran dong enaknya gw masuk apa ??? tapi yang masuk akal.he32…..

First Blood

January 5th, 2008 by ch0cobo

Akhirnya sempet juga iseng iseng bikin blog..

moga2 banyak yang ngunjungin dech..
moga2 juga banyak yang baca dan ninggalin comment ke blog ku..

siapa ya yang first blood ninggalin comment di blog ku ini ? :p

hummm….. bingung dah mau nulis apa.
hari ni capek dech… habis beli shampoo juga buat si pupi (chihuahua) :)

mo tidur dulu dech.. grook grokk.. tutup telinga…

doa kepada Tuhan…… mulai… selesai…

lesson learned today :
bleeding wasn’t so bad when it’s used to save people ;)